Category: Angst, Missing Scene.
Archive: Gossamer. Others please ask.
Scully ran her hand lightly across Lucy Householder's bedding. She
could almost feel the pain Mulder was in. He had tried so much to
save both her and Amy Jacobs. She saw her partner staring through
the window and wished to God they hadn't had to see all this. After
several minutes, it was Scully who broke the silence.
What you said... about suffering and dying to save Amy, and that this
was the only way for her to forget what Wade did to her all those years
ago. Do you really believe that? Do you really believe she tapped into
Amy when Wade kidnapped her?"
Mulder turned slowly. His eyes spilled over with salty tears. "You know
how some people say 'I feel ' your pain so effortlessly when you know
they're just being nice?"
"Well, yes Mulder. I try, I try not to do that. What's your point?"
Mulder sat beside her on the half-way house bed. "Maybe in some way,
on some level, Lucy sacrificed herself so no one else would have to
suffer the alienation, torture and despair that she did. I could feel her
"Mulder, I doubt she even knew that man was in the area, let alone out
of prison. And to suggest that Lucy Householder became some sort of
Saviour, like Christ, well that's just... so far-fetched. There's a kind of
empathy we feel for someone when they've lost someone, when they're
down, but to literally take on someone's physical pain? No. Maybe Lucy
Householder had seen him in town before Amy was taken, and relived
her own abduction simply from memory."
"Great coincidence, don't you think? I feel very down right now, and
maybe it's not so much the death of Lucy, but the sympathy I felt when
she was alive and going thorough all of Amy's suffering."
Scully brushed Mulder's arm lightly. "You're grieving for her. You got close
to her, Mulder. That can sometimes affect us sometimes in this line of
work." She tried to be soothing, but sensed Mulder realy wasn't
comforted by her words.
"I feel that Lucy Householder, in losing all those years, her adolescence,
even her innocence, died many years ago, in a way." Mulder's voice was
close to breaking. "And I can see how that would make her lose herself. I
know I lost a part of myself years ago."
"Your sister," Scully whispered. "I know. It's something that is always
with you. I know you feel guilt that you couldn't keep her from being taken."
Scully put her arm around her partner's shoulder and whispered, "Let's
go home, Mulder. Let's just go home."